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My True Love

 It's been a month since I've had liquor. My sweet one, why do you leave me? I don't want this pain anymore, Please let me escape it. I don't think I'll survive long My aid has now been ruptured and torn. I'm not free of you, I want your sweet return, Another lullaby to pass the time as if I'm young Please come back I can't do this anymore I miss you so much, please one more time for me Don't let me forget you My memories so entangled without you Where do you go now? One more sip please I beg of you Cheers for my success, aid for my pain Pretense when I smile, an end when it rains I want to die without you my love I will be no more

God's Beast

 



Someone was telling me about its concurrence,

It's unfortunate for the lifeless, the betrayal from the brave.


I watched the skyline fill with snow and emanate a powerful glow

It was blinding and repulsive, despite the beauty of its love

I rest assured knowing I needed to run

I give my deepest prayer to the poisonous sun.


Kneeling before my empty furniture with my hands raised forward

The darkness became me as I closed my eyes

And whether it was the lord or the devil

They didn't want it to be apparent for this innocent child


Some say confliction is one response to the devil's tricks

But I find myself believing it was God instead

For he could stop the glowing fortress of snowing piling before my knowing

I find myself reckoning with its hurt directly in dread, as helpless as a human can be


Its unfortunate for those in my situation who think prayer will help change

I watch the snow turn to rain, then hail, it continued to cycle and shift its range

Yet I find myself in this situation now, no longer an atheist in action

But it's certainly true that the chaotic and despondent reality could cause my reaction.


I watch the snow, rain, hail, all vanish within a matter of seconds leaving no trace behind

The poisonous sun flew towards me, radiating itself upon my skin

I wanted to hurt the sun

I wanted it to leave


You could hear the chirps of birds, the squeals of children at play, 

And yet the sun felt as hot as hell to me, but I couldn't tell you how much I didn't want it that way


I felt myself suddenly levitating towards space at a very fast speed,

And stop as soon as I was out of the milky way galaxy

I watched the beauty of the universe displayed directly to me,

And on the side of my face, a singular drop from the ocean, it felt as if it alone made my coldness warm


The very sparse moment I could find beauty was instantly evaporated though,

As God shot me back down to the ground

And he did it because He saw how happy and fulfilled I was for a brief moment

But chained me down for his own laughter 


And yet I still have to await His calling

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