Selfless

 I act so selfishly

I hold onto things that need to roam

I hold onto my emotions too closely

I break my back trying to hold

I lie in bed

Your movements across my mind

That sweet smile in my head

Those luscious eyes so daring

And your joy is glowing

And my feelings so divine

I hold onto those I love

I hold too tightly

Promises of a dove

You're so amazing in every way

I lie in bed

Quiet afternoons

And wish you'd be here soon

I notice a missing piece

I noticed a few

I cant understand rejection

I cant understand space

Sometimes its just a projection

In the mirror i see its face

And in the silo

Filled with lovely roses

A rose dies with each day

Each moment I dont see you

Sighing as I wait for you

Sighing as I find things to do

Sighing as I think of things i dont want to

Sighing as I listen to your voice in my head

Sighing as the day goes by

Sighing as I make people cry

Sighing as it turns over

Sighing without my four leaf clover

Watching you walk away

I cant feel the same

Every moment with you so precious

I close my eyes and slip away

Sometimes we have to let it go

I don't care how long it takes

I want to be with you for life

I want to feel your embrace

Your validation so firey and graceful

I wonder about the days

About the times I had fun

And those are my light

In a deep world of darkness

Sometimes we need small pieces

To feel in line again

And to forgive ourselves

For we have all sinned

Oh how I feel so strongly

And how I miss you

That every moment you're here

I want to kiss you

That every moment you create

Sometimes I wish I knew more

I feel it so deeply

I act so selfish

Im waiting for this

Im waiting for you

For any moment spent

Any moment at all

Whether thats today

Or tomorrow

Or 2 years from now

Or the last day I live

Is the best time I'll ever know

For I have seen you grow

And you bring me joy

I trust you deeply

I cant figure it out

My love for you is wild

And my selfishness in doubt